i am back, maybe, possibly.. i dunno....

it's been a while...

i kinda missed raving and ranting here....

:p

so what's been happening??

my life is moving along, potholes and bumps here and there but nothing significant YET!!! i'm actually pretty worried bout december, january and mac and may and the future....

i'll update here when sumthing happens~~~lol how vague is that?

right now tho i'm thinking.... why is it that in my college, i only trust well... maybe less than 5 people??? i kinda figured that my college is where all the weirdos and hypocrites gather cos seriously if i was here alone (without nurul~~) i might be MORE anti-social or GOD-FORBID actually turn into one of THEM??????!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.... stuff nightmares are made of~~

kinda scared of the future now but i guess we'll cross the bridge when we actually get close enuff to it.....

confused......

a lot of things are going around in my head but i can't pinpoint 1 that i actually wanna say out loud.... hahahah

on a happier note, had a great raya!! and the holiday!! :P

okielar.. i'm just crapping without any substance... when i get my head back on straight, i'll write again~~~~

lifes' lessons

this article is courtesy of Shaz!! :p

Written By
Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written."

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. (it is)
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. (i dislike more than i hate!)
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. (good advice i think!)
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone. (really?)
8. It's okay to get angry with God. He can take it. (noted)
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck. (will do)
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. (I never resist!! <3)
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It' okay to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. (everybody has their own unique journey)
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it. (somebody~~ take note!!)
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the 2nd one is up to you and no one else. (yay!)
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer. (something to think about)
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special. (if u die u can't bring it with u!)
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple. (i like)
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you. (so true)
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words, 'In five years, will this matter?' (ummmmm)
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything. (i'm spiteful!!)
29. What other people think of you is none of your business. (i don't really care~)
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. (this too shall pass-nurul)
32.. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does. (lol)
33. Believe in miracles. (will try....)
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.(i like this!)
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative - dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere. (it's hot outside)
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else’s, we’d grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time.. You already have all you need. (true)
42. The best is yet to come. (still waiting...)
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield. (to what exactly?)
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift. (:p)

i think it's a real nice article~~~ :p

linguaphone "boy"!

okay... this might turm out to be a long post cos its been a while but maybe i'll break it up into a few parts.... we all know what a drag it is to read super long postings rite? :p

on sunday, the 28th of june, after attending my Basic Life Support (BLS) course (which will be explained later), i decided to go and check out the perlis book fair... if u noe me well enuff, u'll noe that i'm an absolute book addict (as long as it's novels! lol). the MAIN reason was to see if i can find an english novel in Perlis... yes ppl, believe it or not, there are no english novels sold on this land called perlis~~ the only thing english is magazines and newspapers and we wonder why ppl from here don't speak english very well rite? (some, not all) but lo and behold... it's a book fair with no english books except school books!!LAME~~~

okay.. back to my story... i was walking with aireena when near the exit we were stopped by this "boy-man" (lets call him "S") trying to sell us Linguaphone. the following is the closest i can get to the actual conversation...

S : kak... saya nak pinjam 5 minit masa kak boleh?
A : ummmm... tak payah la.... takpe....
S : kak, saya nak tanya sikit je... seberapa confident kak dengan bahasa english?
A : *smiles* saya confident sangat
S : oh ye ke? kenapa boleh confident sangat ni?
A : saya confident je la...
S : kalau macam tu, saya nak test akak boleh?
A : huh? oookaaaayyyy....

S : whatsurname?

A : *silence*

S : whatsurname?

A : Aniza

S : kata pandai bahasa english tapi jawab soalan macam tu.... orang tanya penuh, jawab pun penuh la. whatsurname?

A : my name is aniza

S : hah.. kan dah salah tu!

A : huh? tak mungkin lah saya salah... betul lah... jawapan dia my name is aniza.

S : SALAH! dalam bahasa inggris, mana ada my name is.... kena jawab my names

A : HUH? tak mungkin lah... mana ada my names...

S : iyaaa.... takde my name is, jawapan betul dia my names ....

A : tak mungkin lah... saya confident jawapan saya betul.

S : okay... kak ada amik MUET tak?

A : ada

S : dapat band berapa?

A : dapat band 5

S : *smirks* band 5? saya pun dapat band 5 gak, saya belajar kat UITM amik commercial marketing (or something sounding like that la i x dgr). saya tak percaya kak nyer MUET band 5... menurut saya, kak band 2!

A : BAND 2??!! TAK MUNGKIN!!

S : kalau menurut saya kak band 2 je... kalo orang yang band 5, vocabulary kena ada 2000 kata... kak rasa kak ada 2000 kata x?

A : adalah!!!

suddenly he asks me to duduk kat 1 of the tables.... took a paper and pen and wrote the word police....

S : camner nak sebut ni?

Ai : police (cara malaysian cakap la... po-lis.. normal right?)

A : puh-lease (remembering he's trying to be perfect!)

S : so macam mana nie... 1 jawab polis, 1 lagi puhlease....

A : jawaban dia puh-lease...

S : baru betul...

i still x puas hati pasal the names thing.... so i asked him to write it down... he wrote down names as in my names aniza!

A : ni tak mungkin sangat ni...

S : kenapa tak mungkin... betul la.. tak percaya pulak!

A : saya confident gila ini salah... kalo ada 's mungkin tapi kalo names camni x mungkinla

S : kenapa kak confident sangat ni?

A : saya confidentla.... english is my first language, so i'm very confident about something so very basic

S : kak ni orang apa?

A : orang melayu

S : habis tu kenapa first language english pulak?

A : kenapa tak boleh? tapi apa pun saya confident gila nie salah...

calls a friend (T) over

S : tengok ni, diaorang x percaya names tu camni?

A : bukan saya x percaya bang... tapi kalo eja camni memang salah, kalo ada 's saya masih boleh terima lagi la

T : oh... memang ada 's

A : *with smug look on face* hah... kan i dah cakap!!

S : ohhhh *kerek look on face*

the rest of the conversation was meaningless... he probably x puas hati i proved him wrong so he ejek my penggunaan of "lah"... WTF??!

at the end of the debate, he suddenly...

S : boleh bagi saya phone no. x? saya nak testing english u lagi on the phone~~

A : * OMG please! like i'm going to cari gaduh lagi!* x payah la yer.... no!

then another colleague (B) came by and ask....

B : camner english diaorg..

S : oh... english diaorang PERFECT!

A : OH... I never said perfect!... whatever...

and then we left!!

okay.... u can insult just about everything about me but my english???? HELLOOOOOO!!

not bragging or bangga diri but my english is 1 of the things that makes me.. me!! quote gowri " if i don't have english, what do i have... i'm not good at anything else!"... i can speak proper english but there has to be occasion.. if not manglish all the way like every normal bilingual msian!!

safe to say a was pretty pissed off!! seriously if ur trying to sell ppl product like that, u don't go around insulting ur customers rite? ridiculous!

but revenge was sweet!!! nurul met the dude (based on aireena's description!) in alor setar.... story for another day~~ lol

what would u do?? i mean i was in a good mood that day just passing my BLS course.... so i malas wanna retaliate.... but isn't this a WTF kinda stories???

my apologies~~

hey there.... first and foremost, i should probably say i'm sorry ( to my self obviously! ) for my absence... i know i've been missing since december but many things have been going on and if i list them all down it will take centuries.... i mean if u know me well enough, u know i have what psychiatrists call a slight case of "flight of ideas" heheheheheh :p

okay la... i'll let u in on some news.... my laptop up and died on me!!! yes... the motherboard fried and since the cost to repair it equals to half the price of a decent new laptop, i decided to just get a new one.... so right now and for near to 2 months now, i've been laptop-less.... and i feel like a FREAKING CAVEPERSON!! >_< i tell u.... after living with almost 24 hour internet access.... it's just cruel and unusual punishment... so now i'm kinda leeching of nurul ( my saviour!! ) by using her laptop and internet for all purposes including my many assignments!! THANK U HUBS!!

well.... what's new with me?? i just officially finished my neurology posting.... actually, it is really in a bizarre way interesting.... yes, i suprise even myself by saying this!!! so i'm going to start my final lower-cycle posting of dermatology on monday and i have to say... kinda malas!!! :p oh and if any of you wanna know, i participated in Earth Hour with my housemates!!! i have to say that in the whole of Kangar it kinda felt like we were the only one's taking part but i'm sure there are a few enlightened souls that took part... albeit in small groups scattered sparsely all over Perlis!! well, what do u do in the dark?? as if u don't already know.... CAMWHORING!!! hahahahahahahah

yes ppl, even ms ai took part in the camwhoring~~~ all in all, it was kinda nice just to participate but it would have been nicer to have a gathering of close friends and just celebrating in the dark!!! >_< style="font-weight: bold;">GOOD NEWS!!! ( for me at least! ) bestie lyn is coming back and i'm so so so so happy!!!! cos the original plan was that i wouldn't get to see her this year~~~ i'm SUPER EXCITED!!! lyn~~~ I MISS YOU!!!

on another note, i just wanna say that i'm aware i live in a weird country right now... ala ala twilight zone..... cos only in twilight zone will someone that has been elected to rule a country will still have unresolved ( in my opinion ) criminal case..... haih... seriously, the 5th was nice but as a leader aiyoo.... and the 6th.... need i say more.... friends of mine already predicting our doom!!! but maybe we should wait and see... maybe... however improbable that maybe is, give the guy benefit of a doubt (is that the term?)

i probably have many things to say but i should just not say so much!!! hehehehe YET! until later ppl... u guys know i love u rite??? ( u know who u are!! ) LATER..... xoxoxoxoxo