friendship?~~

i was just thinking.... what does friendship mean to me?? i guess i am really VERY VERY picky when it comes to making friends.... i don't like to meet new ppl so its really hard to make new friends (i am wut u can say socially inept!!) i don't actually give off a great 1st impression.... like for example once i met a friends bf and he straight away said (based on what is on my face) " why? u don't look happy to see me??".. i mean WTF??!!! It's a first meeting!!!! of course i have to size u up 1st!!!

i'm funny that way.... once someone said that i scared them based on 1st impression alone... (it's very rare!! maybe i was pms-ing at the time??) haih.... i guess you can say that friends are important to me but yet i never made any true friends until after high school!!! (i noe it's a bit pathetic!!! but i really dun have many special high school memories~~~ my loss i guess!!) i realized later that i need friends but i only want or need TRUE friends!!! how do i decide who my friends are???

that's a dilemma that i think i've solved!!! now, when i meet new ppl i just tend to go with my gut feeling which is 95% reliable!!! and i simply do not i repeat DO NOT hang out in cliques... too much politics u noe~~ (esp malay cliques!!! not that i can relate**) back to my original topic!!! what is friendship to me?

friendship... i guess to me it's like a lifelong commitment!!! you don't just dump your friends if they've wronged you.. you discuss the issues (once you've calmed down @ let ur friends calm down!!) and treat it as a discussion instead of a forum of finger pointing and emotional outbursts!!! it's hard but as girls you tend to be emo... just tone it down a lil!! i guess i'd like to think that friends are forever even if i noe 1 day we might go separate ways but at least ur still friends no matter how long has gone by (I <3 Nor Alia!! one of my first confidants!!!)

if you've got a problem with ur friend, u dun leave her behind to realize by herself that u've decided to leave her behind (in an activity or sumthing!) or hear from another source that ur planning to leave her behind!!! this is actually disturbing... if u are friends, just tell her y?? and hopefully if ur friendship is as important to her she will accept it!!! i dunno i might be wrong in my way of thinking~~ wut do u think?

actually i have many thoughts on this topic but it'll have to wait!! i am supposed to be studying for my anesthesiology exam!!!! wish me luck for my finals tomorrow!!!! last paper!!!! then i can go home and celebrate... oh and to mia!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY (tomorrow!)!!! i'll belanja u mkn so think what u want to mkn okie??

oh man~~

i am feeling like a nutcase simply cos i tend to rant and rave in here.. while nurul finds oh so interesting topics??? omg!!! siap dengan ayat Quran translated version lg!!!! x larat!!!! muahahahahahahaha *see nurul... cos u x kasi org comment in ur page, i made a blog entry bout it!!!! i heart u!!!! hahaha*
such a deep topic as well!!!! i bet u'll get some really interesting phone calls as well from your oh so many friends!!!!!! but then what u say is undisputable lar... i agree wholeheartedly btw!!!

FUNFAIR!!!

yup... 2 weeks ago i went to a funfair... i guess its been ages since i've been to 1.... hahaha suprisingly, it was quite fun!!!! never expected it to be that much fun... but then again i had GREAT company~~~ <3<3>

yup..this is the good company<3

so when we reached the fair grounds, i was soooooooooooooooo hungry to the point i'm shaking (and nurul knows this better than anyone alive how cranky i get when i'm hungry~~) so we got a lil snack to tide us over until we can go get proper food!! not a good move really since almost all the rides are going round and round~~~ but 1st we needed to get tokens cos all the rides will have to be paid in tokens.... 1 token = rm1 and almost all the rides were 3 tokens each!!

the tokens~

THEN we got on the rides!!! it was nuthin special just plain good ol' fun~~~

we started with this one~round and round~

then, this one.... round and round!!!

you should have seen us!!! after those two rides, we were a lil bit green!!! ahahahahah but since we didn't eat all that much, we managed to tame our stomachs back to submission!!!! PHEW!!! can u imagine throwing up in public?? too gross!!!! so after that we decided to get on the last ride... the ferris wheel!!! mild even if it does go round and round!!!!

~~pretty lights~~

safe to say that inside the ferris wheel, there was nurul (permanent chairperson of CWA), me (president of CWA) and a camera!!!! must i spell out what happened???? (nope i'm not going to put in the pics.... maybe nurul might??!! oh god pls no!!!) but i did take a pic of the whole fair ground while up top!!! as dr. appava will say "birds-eye view".... hehehe

so many pretty lights!!

after the ride we played a few games and all we got for it was....-->
and 2 mineral bottles!! SAD I know!!

so now its 11pm... where are we going to find place to mkn??? i know that there are plenty of kedai nasi kandar around but so not in the mood!!! so we went and explored the place near Sunway Carnival Mall!!!! we ended up eating at this place called KEYS??? so dun remember cos even tho the place looked all gempak and happening... a disappointment really!!! so saking x puasnyer.. nurul wanted to go to another place to mkn!!! but its now close to midnight~~~ hahaha but we found a new kopitiam that we'll be haunting...... cos the menu looks good!!!

the scrambled eggs was yummy!!!!

so by the time we came home, it was nearly 1am... hahaha what a gurls night out kan nurul??? lets do that again sometime!!!!! i guess dats it lar for now..... i've been writing and now i wanna go take a nap!!!! hahaha

pests!!!

i HATE household pests!!! especially ants, spiders, cockraoaches and lizards!!!! why do they insist on coming in the hse when u've already killed some of they friends?? are they simply asking to be killed!!!!

ANTS -> the bane of my existance!!! y izzit that everytime i see a line of ants in my room i get annoyed?? because MY ROOM is devoid of foodstuff!!! nope they're not there for the food... instead, they are using my room as an expressway.... every night i'll kill all the ants that i can see and reach... then, the line of ants will disappear (for a few hours!!) and then reappear taking a slightly different route!! according to nurul, the ants in her house will disappear when some gets killed... but at my place... I WISH!! maybe they're foreign ants.. they don't understand y i'm so violent towards them!! plus.. they are suicidal as well cos somedays i'll find them swimming in the kettle!! any suggestions on what i should do???

SPIDERS -> well... lets just say they dirty the house real fast... plus they always breed really fast as well!!! esp the daddy long leg types!!

COCKROACHES ->at the moment, i've never seen any at my place yet... (thank god!!) but i'm reminded of a story..... i remembered that in August of 2006 me and my hsemate nurul was moving into a new place (to stay)... and i'm sure nurul remembers this story very very well!!! we were going to clean the house since it was empty for a while... so obviously the first thing i'd want to clean is the toilet!!! everything looks fine... not a critter in sight!!! there was however this rather unsightly paint can masquerading as tempat takung air and it was upside down!!! (we don't want to breed dengue now right?? so i wanted to put it outside... i lifted it and WHOOSH!!

yes.. this is the toilet but it doesn't actually look so bad
(this was taken from the door so imagine how small the place is!!)

Cockroaches from at least 10 generations scrambles out from under the paint can!!! it was the most gross situations ever... suddenly everywhere you want to run to is filled with cockroaches (bear in mind that i am still in the freakin toilet!!) but i run anyway wishing to god i didn't step on any... oh AND THE SMELL!! you know how sometimes you can tell if a cockroach ia around... yeah..multiply dat by about 50X....*uwekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk*. so now i'm out and close the toilet door to contain the critters inside!!! then we ran to the neightbours hse to borrow the BAYGON!!!! so war was started!!! we opened the door and started spraying non stop until we ran out of baygon~~~ yet they were still scurrying around!!! so armed with my trusty brrom... the squishing session started!!! i killed more than i could ever hope to kill~~~ very proud!!! again.. it was soooooo GROSSSSSSSS!!

LIZARDS -> do i need to expand on this issue?????

sorry... this is another rant session~~~ but i'll appreciate any advice on the ant issue!!!! hehe

i feel like a little rant session...

lets see.... i feel like ranting n raving at the moment... i've just been reminded by someone about all things i'm not satisfied bout... especially regarding acms accomodation~~~~ there are many things i'm not happy about... among other things...

1. The mattress which feels more like the sponge u use to clean ur dirty plates!!! i mean i wouldn't let my cat sleep on a bed like that!!! wassup man???

yup... that there is my bed!!!!

yes!!! that is how thick it is... but watch this....

this is what happens when i squeeze it!!! can u imagine what happens when u sleep on it?? i can feel the bedframe digging at my back.... on the bright side... free massage!!!! so i have fortified my place of leisure so that it would be acceptable for the use of human beings~~

i bought the travellers mattress!!!! and now i can sleep nicely even if occasionally i can feel the besi at my back!!!
ahhhh.... and i spread a quilt over the bed as well!!! and ppl still wonder y i don't have enough sleep and am cultivating my eyebags with love and care~~~ u ppl get it rite???? right about now i'm sure ur asking "y la this gurl sooooo stupid never ask for new mattress".. all i can say is i have!!!! sampai berbuih mulut tau until i totally give up!!!! the management sucks anyway!!!

2. The price of the house!!! RM300 per head??? bear in mind it is a townhouse in a gated community w/ a swimming pool and gym... but this is not bloody KL?? according to my sources, the whole lot of hse is RM1,200 but as it is i'm only using the 2nd floor... can u imagine their untung if there were 4-5 ppl to a hse (upstairs n downstairs!!!)

3. The new warden.... now this lady is sooooooooooo lazy... now instead of sending us the bill (as in the whole bill) she places the list of houses and prices in the library!!! (i mean WE= the fourth years have no time to go to the campus library... sangat!!) okay... and then she has the nerve to tell me she is NOT going to give me a copy of the bill... if i want a copy i have to go copy it myself!!! WTF!!! has she ever heard of documentation??? don't i need 1??

4. Curfew... can u believe she actually set a curfew of 12 midnight for us!!!! (i admit there is nothing much to do here in ulu land but...) omg... what r we....16??? i mean we're 23 years old!!!! so we all always break curfew just to rub it in her face!!!! just like yeasterday when i came home at a little past 1am.... i'm sure she's getting a report from the security guard as we speak!!! hahahaha

these are the main issues~~~ but other than that its mostly personal.. like ppl in the management that i cannot stand the sight of!!! apalagi when i hear their voice!!!! i feel like the sound of nail scratching the blackboard is much MUCH better!!!! why do these ppl airritate me so!!!!!!!!!! thats it for now!!!! i feel much better!!!! :P

Shaz tagged me...

7 random facts about me:
1. I'm in medical posting (mini) and it's its stressful
2. I enjoy hanging out with friends & family... but not a big entourage
3. I love food!!!
4. I hate hypocrites (yes shaz i'm sure a lot of ppl do)
5. I love to watch movies
6. I am i love with ANIME
7. I wake up at 6 four days a week~~~


7 things that scares me:
1. Falling from a great height
2. Failing in my studies
3. Losing my family (i dunno if i can handle that)
4. Not be able to eat @ walk by myself
5. Nature's revenge
6. Getting out of my comfort zone (i dun like to meet new ppl)
7. Dying slowly (i'd rather it be fast and instant)

7 random music at the moment:
1. Gabriel (Lamb)
2. Noreul Saranghae (Han Dong Joon)
3. Always Be My Baby (David Cook)
4. Smile (Connie Talbot)
5. Tercipta Untukku (Ungu feat. Rossa)
6. Sorafune (TOKIO)
7. Zhuan Shu Tian Shi (Tank)


7 things I say the most:
1. Huh?
2. Oh?
3. I don't know!
4. I'll go home and read...
5. Shit!!!
6. MAK!
7. I'm so sleepy~~


7 things I treasure the most (material things):
1. my laptop
2. my handbag (mummy just bought me 1 while i makkah!!)
3. my novel collection (if anything happened~~~)
4. my broadband
5. my collection of anime DVD's
6. my handphone (even if it's time to change it!)
7. my bank account


7 "first time" things I ever did:
1. My first time travelling alone without my family when i went to Italy!!!
2. Staying in Italy for 2 months
3. New Year celebration while i was in Italy (kinda sad that i was the only person not drunk)
4. My first ATM card (BSN) while in matriks
5. My first time studying over the selat in Indonesia
6. My first time seeing a surgical procedure (Caesarean Section)
7. The first time i bought a Tshirt for myself (Roxy baby T that cost me close to Rm 80 when i was in Form 3


7 people to do this:
1. Mia
2. Nurul
3. Anyone
4. with
5. lots
6. of
7. free time


OMG... that was kinda tough!!! hahaha i was bored so i decided why not~~

Gabriel by Lamb

this song is up for interpretation... i just like the song..... hehehe here are the lyrics okay??

I can fly
But I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that he brings
Revel in the songs that he sings
My angel Gabriel

I can love
But I need his heart
I am strong even on my own
But from him I never want to part
He's been there since the very start
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel

Bless the day he came to be
Angel's wings carried him to me
Heavenly
I can fly
But I want his wings
I can shine even in the darkness
But I crave the light that he brings
Revel in the songs that he sings
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel
My angel Gabriel

The day i met my baby....

WAH.... the tajuk so hebat rite??? actually i just wanted to intro my baby to everyone!!! her name is kay-zee short for kitty zilla~~~ please dun think weird things... of course it's a cat!!!! hahahaha

KAY-ZEE

isn't she lovely!!!! (say it with me AWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!) you can see that pink collar??? that's nurul's gesture so that she looks like a gurl~~~ nuruls claims that i masculinize my kitty (what??!!?!?!) oh and my mum says she looks like an over sized rat!!! (this is because she is so pointed everywhere u look.. pointy face, pointy ears... and her body pun like slim!!!) or maybe it could be due to the fact that my mummy is biased towards her baby called ginger... i think the latter 1 makes more sense!!!

GINGER

oh well.... whateva ppl say.. she is my baby... the story of how i found and rescued her... lets just say that is was drama!!!

one fine day, aireena, nurul and i were on our way home.. it was evening time and when we were nearing the toll turnoff, i saw this little speck smack dab right in the middle of the road. At first i thought it was just another bit of rubbish but imagine my shock and suprise when i saw that it was actually a kitten!!! i almost died on the spot when i saw a car pass by her just inches from her face.... can u imagine how scared she was!!! she was so scared she was like 'batu' in the middle of the road!!! straightaway i asked aireena to stop the car.... even if she thought i was nuts to stop the car in the middle of the road... she kept it to herself!!!! (sayang u!!!)

anyway, as soon as the car stopped i stepped out of the car (thankful that there were no other cars in sight!!!) and went to the kitten hoping to at least shoo it to the side of the road.... when WHISH! i feel her slip past my fingers and run for salvation~~~straight under aireena's car. Ai at this point is sooooooooo embarassed by me (the crazy cat lady!!) that she was already hiding behind the car cushion!!!! hahahaha it was hilarious~~.. so now the kitty is under the car. when i tried to grab her, she hissed and spitted at me (alamak... garangnyer!!). so to try and get her out from there i tried spraying water at her but it only made matters worse.

she is now in the rear tyre of ai's car!! OH NO!!!!! now i really dunno how to get her out.... but suddenly (jeng3x) dtglah this abang onhis motorcycle wondering why is this gurl on her hands and knees in the middle of the road. to mkae long story short, he helped with the extraction of the kitty with the assistance of nurul while i played police traffic so that no one gets hurt!!! let me say that being polis trafik is quite embarassing but i rationalised it as "these ppl dunno who i am.. so y must i care!"

out comes the kitty screaming at the top of her lungs "EEEEOOOOOWWWWWWWW!!!!!" and i felt so sorry for it. the abang showed me the cat wondering where he should leave it (bear in mind how garang she is!) but i said nevermind.. just give her to me. he was so worried the kitty was going to hurt me (so baik right!!) but kay-zee just settled quietly on my lap as soon as i got in the car... she was shaking so hard.... "damn.... now i'll have to take care of her....after all these years trying so hard not to create a bond with cats that i encounter!!!" while all these things were happening, ai was worrying her ass of in the car.... watching the traffic light go from red to greean to yellow and red again over and over again.

so that's how kay-zee came to be part of my family~~ what did i tell u bout drama??? hahahaha...KAYZEE!!! you'll always be my baby.... i love u~~~ muaxxxxxxxx

i got a new camera!!!

so finally after a gazillion years using my sister's leftover cameras (i know that the older sister never gets hand-me-downs but no ones perfect!!) i got myself a new camera!!!! YAY!!!!!! i got it at the recent PIKOM PC fair~~ i love it!!! i don't need a state of the art camera, just 1 that is functional..... its a Canon Powershot A470.... here's a pic...
Yes... i know that red is sooooooo NOT me.. i love the colour blue!!!! but this shade of red@pink is so cute!!!! i just couldn't help myself!!!! anyway the PC fair was soooo crowded i feel like 1 of the sardines in the can.. i can't breathe and feel like passing out multiple times but the satisfaction i gained and not to mention the things i bought was worth it!!!
i hope it will stay healthy always because if know me well enough, you will know that :

1. i am sooo clumsy (i hope i don't drop it EVER!!)
2. i am very forgetful (i hope i don't leave it anywhere and lose it!)
3. i am super kasar!!!! hahaaha
   

c ya!!!! i'll tell you guys about my kitty next~~~ i'm sleepy and i want to go and take a NAP!!!! (exam taking is exhausting for my brain!!!)

i'm sleepy~~

okay.. so its 2 am on a friday... i have an exam at 9 but i kinda wanna go to bed in a while disregarding the topics i have yet to read!!!!! i'm going to wake up at 6am (hopefully i do!) to just read and re-read....

i have so many things to get of my chest that tomorrow (as in after my exams) is going to be a long long day in which i'll write down those things.... maybe even pictures.... (hehehe i sooooo wanna show off my new camera!! it's sooooo cute)

i'm going to go sleep now~~ nitey nite

My first try!!!

First things first... i DID NOT jump on the blogging wagon just to go along with the trend (OMG i hope not~~) but lets just say that i was influenced by many blogs that i have read... this is sooooo going to be a platform where i write about things i like, things@ppl that i dislike (i try not to use the word HATE.... its such a strong word don't u think??
YES : i am going to whine and bore the living daylights out of everyone (if anyone at all reads this blog) cos at the moment i guess i'll just keep this private...


NO : i am NOT going to blog my whole life!!! I lurveeeeeeee my privacy~~

what else shall i crap about in my first official blog?? any ideas?? OMG... i already sound so boring i'm going to hang myself.... hahahaha